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bogdan » my theory of consciousness and death

12:49 am on Dec 13, 2025 | read the article | tags: th!nk

consciousness is the key to our perception of existence. our brain interprets electrical impulses, converts them into images, sensations, emotions, and thoughts, and then projects them as the world we experience. much like light defines our perception of space, the internal rhythm of the brain (its own clock) defines our perception of time. every thought, every feeling, every heartbeat is synchronized to this hidden pulse.

when this clock slows down, our perception of time changes. we experience it every day without noticing: in dreams, in moments of fear, in the seconds before sleep, or after a few drinks. the mind bends time. a second can feel eternal; an hour can vanish in an instant. this distortion is not an illusion but a property of consciousness itself, a measure of how the brain processes the flow of reality.

death, then, might not be a sudden stop. it could be a gradual deceleration of this internal clock. as the neurons lose energy, as oxygen fades, the tempo of perception slows. from the outside, a heartbeat stops, the body becomes still. from the inside, time stretches. seconds become minutes, minutes become infinity. the last moment of consciousness might expand endlessly within itself: a single instant turned into eternity.

in this final expansion, the brain releases a storm of chemicals. endorphins, DMT, neurotransmitters that blur the border between memory and dream. the result is a flood of images: fragments of life, flashes of meaning, the last story told by the self. what remains could be shaped by what dominated that life: regret or peace, fear or acceptance. those emotions, amplified beyond measure, might form our «afterlife», not as a place, but as a state, a memory trapped in infinite time.

perhaps this is our heaven and our hell. not a judgment, but a reflection. a lifetime compressed into a single thought, looping forever at the edge of awareness. the mind, like a computer in its last cycle, frozen in the last line of code it executed.

there might be nothing beyond that moment. no continuation. no transcendence. but there is still meaning in it. the life we build determines the state of that final memory. if we live surrounded by (our perception of) beauty, curiosity, and love, then even our last instant might become infinite light. and if we live chained to (what we feel is) bitterness, fear, or guilt, that same infinity could turn into inescapable darkness.

in the end, perhaps death is not the opposite of life, but its final mirror. the clock does not break; it simply slows until it no longer needs to measure time.

bogdan » the subjectivity of advice

09:20 am on Nov 28, 2024 | read the article | tags: th!nk

lately, i’ve been reflecting on how we approach complex, open-ended questions, especially in professional settings. too often, we turn to quotes from books or social media posts for answers. while these can be inspiring, i think it’s important to remember that reading – and interpretation – is a deeply personal experience.

take literature as an example. in José Saramago’s Cain, there’s a striking scene where Eve exchanges sexual favors for food with angels. what does this mean? is it a critique of humanity’s “end justifies the means” pragmatism, or does it reveal the amorality of higher beings exploiting the powerless? depending on the reader, both interpretations – and likely many more – can coexist.

the same applies to advice on leadership or personal growth. quotes, like those we often see in LinkedIn posts or books, are filtered through the author’s experiences and biases. they may not fully apply to our unique situations. instead, i’ve found that deeper discussions and reflections, rooted in the specific context of the challenges we face, are far more valuable than trying to apply universal wisdom.

bogdan » și-am mai găsit o cutie de cola zero

11:10 pm on Sep 6, 2011 | read the article | tags: th!nk

și-am mai găsit o cutie de cola zero în frigider …

bogdan » și-am mai găsit o cutie de cola zero

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și-am mai găsit o cutie de cola zero în frigider …

bogdan » cât de responsabili suntem, prin ceea c …

12:03 pm on May 12, 2011 | read the article | tags: th!nk

cât de responsabili suntem, prin ceea ce publicăm pe internet, față de generațiile următoare? dacă peste câteva sute de ani supraviețuiește doar o parte din informație și generațiile viitoare încearcă să rezolve puzzle-ul și să stabilească modul nostru de viață? cât de departe vor fi de adevăr?